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book libraries poetic

When the rains came

When the rains came
the books were unprepared,
languishing in their regulated air,
they knew no more of wet
than a babe of fire
or an animal of greed.

The drops started slow,
cold dark moisture creeping
along the undersides of pipes,
melting through crevices,
plummeting in the manner of spring leaves,
patient for their fate.

When they reached the wall they balked,

hesitated.

The drops behind piled down upon them,
forced them to push through,
not hungry,
but desperate to obey gravity,
however slowly they would go.

Now, finding paper,
old trees,
the water soaked,
spread,
saturated those folds of wood and ink
and tried to remember
the call that nature gave
to water and to wood.

The water soaked,
and remembering by instinct,
told the books, “drink. grow.”

At first it was an onslaught
to paper that had never known
worse than cries of censorship,
which does not warp the page
nor smear the ink. Gradually,
listening,
they drank.
Page by page,
thoughts hazy as the ink ran,
as the pages twisted,
they tried to remember being trees.

Eventually the water stopped,
human error made right by human hand.
Some books were saved.
Some had gone mad, the lust to grow
turned their spines to sap
and their pagination
to rings of age beyond their memory.

Later, tossed out amidst debris,
the books, mad with life,
found sediment,
water,
sky.

And from each page,
a tiny sprig took hold,
following down into the earth,
the driving voice of gravity and life.

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personal poetic

reflection squared

the image in the mirror isn’t you,
though it looks like you and acts like you,
it’s face, too, seems such an odd shape,
it’s smile too forced, it’s eyelids too low,
and you’re reminded so much of yourself.

but when, in the desperation of night’s cold,
you throw yourself into its arms,
it shatters, cuts you, destroys your fragile countenance.

now there are a hundred,
none of them you.
regardless,
you start an army,

a throng of reflections looking to each other for answers.

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game humor webcomics

We’re gonna save Zelda!

Yeah, Zelda!

But really, I was just gonna throw down some more links.

This article over at The Beast is one of the funniest and most well-written pieces of editorial comment I’ve read in some time. I got the link via Kottke because I depend on people more well-informed than I am to tell me what to read.

Connor Moran is a local, and he knows how to tell a joke. I can appreciate that, even if the bastard never links to our comic.

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libraries news

The Future of the Academic Library

I’m on a librarian listserv, and these are a couple articles that were mentioned today, concerning the future of the academic library and the growing digitalization of information, entertainment, and education.

This article from EDUCAUSE Review eloquently discusses the problems, and ideas for solutions, for the modern academic librarian.

Over the next decade, colleges and universities will have to make critically important practical and policy decisions about the function of libraries, about the space devoted to libraries, and about the roles of librarians. If these decisions are made wisely, the academy may be able to maintain much of the ineffable, inspirational value associated with academic libraries while retaining their practical value through altogether transformed activities and functions built upon a new mission designed for a more digital world.

In turn, the ACRLblog talks about the validity of the arguments presented in the EDUCAUSE article, and it’s relation to a few other articles that have been published in the recent past.

And to follow up, another EDUCAUSE article that talks about Place as Library.

On a personal note, I find it exciting to be a part of a world that is growing and changing so rapidly. I also find it a little scary to jump into a profession that rests so soundly on changing principles and ideas. When I get too worried, I think about all those little libraries, in all those little towns, and in all those big, big states, who don’t care so much about these issues as they do about when the next Sue Grafton book is released.

In other words, if the Academic Library seems flummocticatedly mutable, the Public Library remains stalwart and honest, which is not to say unprogressive.

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personal

God loves a whiner.

Really no desire to be “out” at the moment, though the night air and the lights from downtown beckon to me. But I don’t know their purpose. The last post was fairly accurate, and my favorite bit is:

i’m rambling on rather self consciously
while i’m stirring these condiments into my tea
and i think i’m so lame
i bet i think this song’s about me
don’t i don’t i don’t i ?

I’m in a goddam lull, which comes as interests wane and I am driven to reevaluate certain things. Most of my friends have taken to hanging out at the Eagle’s bar, and I’ve grown to hate the place, so it’s become harder and harder to go out. It’s not that I mind the people, but the atmosphere is dark and dingy and it’s probably the only smoking bar in the entire state right now.

God, listen to me whine.

My interests have been waxing in the library world, and I’ve got a few projects in mind to get a head start with what it might be like to be a librarian, including two web projects and an idea for an article, which I may even try to publish if I ever get it written. But after a day of work I find it hard to come home and devote myself to more work (though I know plenty of people do).

For now, though, I think I’ll go to bed. I worked all day, and now I’m dead tired. Toodles!

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music

Quite romantic

lull – andrew bird, weather systems

being alone it can be quite romantic
like jacques cousteau underneath the atlantic
a fantastic voyage to parts unknown
going to depths where the sun’s never shone
and i fascinate myself when i’m alone

so i go a little overboard but hang on to the hull
while i’m airbrushing fantasy art on a life
that’s really kind of dull
oh, i’m in a lull

i’m all for moderation but sometimes it seems
moderation itself can be a kind of extreme
so i joined the congregation
i joined the softball team
i went in for my confirmation
where incense looks like steam
i start conjugating proverbs
where once there were nouns
this whole damn rhyme scheme’s starting to get me down

oh, i’m in a lull
i’m in a lull

being alone it can be quite romantic
like jacques cousteau underneath the atlantic
a fantastic voyage to parts unknown
going to depths where the sun’s never shone
and i fascinate myself when i’m alone

i’m rambling on rather self consciously
while i’m stirring these condiments into my tea
and i think i’m so lame
i bet i think this song’s about me
don’t i don’t i don’t i ?

i’m in a lull

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internet news socialweb

ePrivacy, iPrivacy, and yPiracy

Consider this a link-dump, if you like. I won’t ramble much myself.

I don’t think it’s that people think of the internet as private, neccesarily, but that they just don’t expect it to be used against them. Or perhaps, that it’s so big that they can be just a face in the crowd. But internet privacy issues are becoming bigger and bigger, from getting google searched at the border, to having your Facebook profile checked by university admissions staff to help determine if they should accept your application.

This Times article highlights the issue of search engine anonymity. Though it clearly states that no “private” information was being proferred, doesn’t it feel like that would just be a matter of time?

“These search engines are a very tempting target for government and law enforcement,” Givens said. “Look at the millions of people who use search engines without thinking of the potential to be drawn into a government drag net.”

I’m not a big fan of facebook (I do have an account), but evidently a lot of people are. This story claims facebook has over 6 million active users, and that over 2/3 of them log on daily. And with stats like that, can you blame a college for “keeping an eye” on their students. Yes, and I think you should. It’s easy for college and university administration to forget that students are what keep them in business. So they had a few drinks, in private. So they “threaten” to commmit a crime. On the internet!? Hell, I’ve threatened to do a lot of things on the internet, but you can bet your ass that if someone “disciplined” me for it, I’d bring a lawsuit down on them with an unholy fury. Should students watch what they post? Perhaps. But maybe the administration should try and respect their privacy a bit too, before they scare all the students away. Because then what will they do?

Hit cancel on the login form and you’ll get two paragraphs of this story, which details students rushing a football field and starting something of a “postgame riot”. Campus police were overwhelmed and only managed a couple arrests, but once again facebook came to the rescue, and through posted photos they managed to finger a whole ton of other students. These students were actually breaking the law, so it makes a bit more sense than the previous example. Yet just another story of Student Beware!

This eweek article highlights the story of an Iranian man and resident of Toronto being stopped from entering the US when border guards found out he was a blogger and so googled his name, finding too much evidence that he had been living, without proper documentation, in New York. His blog post about the experience is interesting. It’s from November 24, 2005, so a little old but very relevant to the issue. Sure, it seems obvious in retrospect, but how would you feel if the border guard not only found your blog, but started to interrogate you about each and every post? I know I’d be outraged.

He was ecstatic. My blog made his day, or in this case, his night. He kept reading my posts and asking questions about a lot of them: Why did I go to Iran, what are my feelings about Bush administration, why I separated from my wife, what did I think about Iranian politics, etc.

From this article:

Now that students have grown accustomed to posting every detail of their lives, from the mundane to the torrid, on their profiles, they need to show a little more restraint. On many profiles, discretion takes a back seat to showing off Thursday night’s killer keg stand or commenting on Friday night’s hook up.

Though I totally love this turnaround by some clever students:

At George Washington University, students took it upon themselves to prove that university police were using the Facebook to find and break up parties. They created a “Beer Party” on the Facebook and waited, digital cameras in hand, for police to arrive. When squad cars rolled up, police found students sipping punch and downing cupcakes frosted with the word “beer.”

And facebook isn’t the only “dangerous” public domain. Myspace is, of course, immensely popular, and got these kids in trouble.

Do a Google news search for facebook right now, and you’ll get 332 articles, at a glance most of them about students getting busted by schools for things they’ve posted on their facebook profiles. While you’re there, try searching myspace as well, or livejournal, blog, typepad, friendster, etc etc etc. The social tools available on the internet today are amazing, and they certainly have their uses. But unless federal law steps in with internet privacy laws, expect the people you would least like to see your blog/profile/photos to see them, and act accordingly. Also, don’t forget that myspace and livejournal both have privacy locks you can put on posts so that not just anyone can read them. Until every service offers similar protection, bear in the mind that at its core, the nature of the internet is that it’s public.

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poetic

Linguatastically yours, bava.

I was poking around at thesaurus.com because, once again, I couldn’t remember a word (which I never did find, damn it), and thought this was interesting.

Their entry for liberal:

Main Entry: liberal
Part of Speech: adjective 1
Definition: progressive
Synonyms: advanced, avant-garde, big, broad, broad-minded, catholic, detached, disinterested, dispassionate, enlightened, flexible, free, general, high-minded, humanistic, humanitarian, impartial, indulgent, inexact, interested, latitudinarian, left, lenient, libertarian, loose, magnanimous, not close, not literal, not strict, permissive, pink, radical, rational, reasonable, receiving, receptive, reformist, tolerant, unbiased, unbigoted, unconventional, understanding, unorthodox, unprejudiced
Antonyms: conservative
Source: Roget’s New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.1.1)
Copyright © 2006 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved.

And for conservative:

Main Entry: conservative
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: moderate
Synonyms: bourgeois, cautious, constant, controlled, conventional, die-hard, fearful, firm, fogyish, fuddy-duddy, guarded, hard hat, hidebound, holding to, illiberal, inflexible, middle-of-the-road, not extreme, obstinate, old guard, old-line, orthodox, quiet, red-neck, right, right-wing, sober, stable, steady, timid, traditional, traditionalistic, unchangeable, unchanging, uncreative, undaring, unimaginative, unprogressive, white bread
Antonyms: incautious, left-wing, liberal, progressive, radical, revolutionary
Source: Roget’s New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.1.1)
Copyright © 2006 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved.

It may just be me, but it seems like “conservative” is painted more negatively than “liberal”, and in a thesaurus, of all places. Who knew Roget was such a revolutionary?

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news

The Terror on Terror

Call me crazy, but I’m really fucking tired of the “war on terror”. Like the bumper stickers say, War IS terror.

Anyway, here’s a complete transcript of the audio broadcast. It claims to be completely accurate, but I really have no clue.

I’m no bin Laden fan, but right now, Bush feels like an evil that is much closer to home.

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montreal personal poetic

Montreal

Beware of what comes out of Montreal, especially during winter.
It is a force corrosive to all human institutions. It will
bring everything down. It will defeat itself. It will establish
the wilderness in which the Brightness will manifest again.

– from ‘Montreal’, by Leonard Cohen

The news is official,
though still too early to pack my bags.
I’m ready now for that trek, again;
ready again to consolidate my life into
a two-door on wheels and to drive like flying.

In August I will take my leave from this rain,
from these domes and evergreens,
lakes and quiet inlets.
August, a day away at best and yet
still too far to taste.

And long past August, when the hard winter falls,
we’ll corrode together,
Montreal and I,
and eat away at the institutions,
at the heartbreaks and the lonely solitudes
and we’ll emerge and be stars upon the earth.

And every step will be a search for new constellations.

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personal poetic

Write like you used to.

Today my finger’s are antsy,
waiting for the right meaning
to find its way into my head;
for the right word or sentiment,
for everything to make sense again.

Reading back over July of ’04,
carpe diem, you know …
and all that;
makes me wonder what it felt like,
to be me then,
and the effort it takes to remember

it was me

is frightening.

Reminiscences are futile, finally,
chicken scratch on a chalkboard
long since washed away,
written over,
overridden with current turmoil,
and the zen certainty that
everything is happening simultaneously.

I never asked for Washington.
I was born here, lived here,
moved away and came back and it has my heart
and I can’t understand, regardless,
a similar connection to a different place.

Home is where your car is licensed.

My eye, lately, takes to rambling
like my fingers are now,
and it has no opinion on consequences;
leaves them for the rest of me,
takes its fill,
moves on. Philanderer.

Wandering the stacks at closing,
i put my hand out,
let my fingers run over the spines
as i used to do often when i was shelving.
I’ll close my eyes and
feel the whispers of those worlds
rasping against my skin.

Sometimes my breath will catch,
there alone,
and I am reminded.

I can hardly stand the beauty of this world.

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cinema love personal

For lack of a suitable thought …

Shazzam! It’s a ramble!
I’m here to gamble,
my pocket pair is gonna
leave you in a shamble.

so on and so forth.

Man, what a glorious life as a rapper I could have had, passed up for the off chance that I might become a librarian one day.

Lately, I’ve been falling in love a lot.

A week ago, I fell in love with Stephanie. You may recognize her from MirrorMask.

Since then, I’ve fallen for Emily Mortimer, from Dear Frankie.

This is to say nothing of my past loves.

And heck, any of them are certainly still welcome to call me.

Three cheers for this totally pointless post!

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internet

The Gajillion Dollar Internet $$$

Perhaps the most disturbing thing about The Million Dollar Homepage is how few people have heard of it. This disturbs me because it means that this guy made a $ million, cold, in advertising that your common joe will never see.

The Wiki article expounds that knock-off sites are rampant, but that “the limited success of these imitators may have an impact on its long-term sustainability.” Even so.

This guy has already made over $5000.

Pixel4Jesus has made nearly $70,000. All in the Lord’s name, of course.

And there are a boatload of them. This pixel ads list contains over 1175 pixel advertising sites, and growing. If you average one million pixels per page (as most of them do), and say they run an average of even as low as ten cents per pixel (though I’d assume the average is slightly higher), then that’s $117,500,000 worth of adspace.

In comparisn, The Mile Wall is refreshingly different, if still a very strange beast of an advertising gimmick, and as yet relatively unknown. Since Kottke linked it, I’m sure it will launch into the (internet’s) public eye soon enough. At the least, at $1 per square inch (a square inch being being 5625 pixels by the site’s standards), you’re getting a lot more ad for your money’s worth. At a mile wide and 7″ tall, the guy only stands to make $443,520. We’ll see how that works out for him.

It must be a rough life, taking a blank page in the middle of internet nowhere and turning it into an ad revenue Mecca. Pixel ad sites will be short-lived, but you know this has started a trend of outside-the-box internet ad junkies, who will come up with increasingly weird ways to sell worthless internet space for thousands of dollars.

Personally, I’m jealous as fuck. I’m interested to see where it goes. And I wish I’d thought of it.

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internet poetic school socialweb

Battle of the Megictionaries

Whatever their shortcomings, neither encyclopedia appears to be as error-prone as one might have inferred from Nature, and if Britannica has an edge in accuracy, Wikipedia seems bound to catch up.

Continued here…

In other Wiki news, have you heard about Wikiversity?

The main goal of Wikiversity is not just to impart knowledge but to facilitate learning. The collaborative model of the wiki will be applied to an e-learning framework. This differs significantly from a classic university model, although it does acknowledge the growing acceptance of a social theory of learning in pedagogical and academic practice.

Wikiversity will not prohibit research, though it need not necessarily be a part of every course. In the technical training aspects of its work, its goal is not to discover new things, but to teach things which are already known to new people. At a higher level of education, there will probably have to be some scope for students to do their own research, whether a survey of the literature or of primary research, though this will have to be monitored carefully, and will be dependent on the type of course offered.

Wikiversity does not yet certify student’s mastery. We currently have no way of assuring who is doing the work for a course. We have no way ensuring that every course that would be required for a degree has enough teachers to even attempt it. We attempt to teach the same material many accredited schools do, and to teach the material as well (or better!). But we are not yet an accredited university. There is no guarantee that we will attempt to gain accreditation in the future. It is an open question with diverse opinions within the current community of participants whether accreditation and the ability to award recognized credentials will be useful or effective in the performance of our mission to facilitate free learning. It is already clear that Wikiversity will be a radically different kind of learning platform/environment/resource and its identity and scope will be continually shaped by its students and its practitioners.

Our goal, therefore, is to teach the material to whomever wants to learn it, to the best of our ability and theirs. We set out the materials needed to learn, and set up a framework for collaborative learning and teaching. It is the task of the self selected participants to work towards actual mastery of desired skills sufficient and necessary to pursue personal goals.

And since I don’t remember if I posted this before, it’s a great wiki resource for librarians.

You guessed it, it’s Wiki Wednesday!

Before I said that, I didn’t even know it was an actual phenom.

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love personal

Clanging in the New Year …

… because “ringing” just wouldn’t cover it, and I’m not entirely sure what it’s supposed to mean, anyway. I have never, intentionally, “rung” a year, much less a new one. I find that, once they age a bit, their tone improves, so why ring them when they’re all new and shiny? Let them tarnish a bit, collect some wisdom and experience, and then RING THE SHIT OUTTA THEM!!! Evidently, I will clang a new year, which conjures up strange images in my head, and ever stranger sounds. Who knows what that’s all about.

This is a newsy sorta update, and I may be prone to ramble, as I do when I haven’t updated for some time. If you’re looking for something interesting to read, move on. If you find ME interesting, then feel free to stick around, but don’t say I didn’t warn you.

Christmas, for me, is about tradition. Every year builds on the memories of previous years to help make each year a little more special. The cool thing about traditions for me is that the longer you do them, the cooler they get. I don’t ascribe to religious or spiritual traditions, just the ones that I have chosen to personally adopt into my life, and my favorite of these is probably spending Christmas in Port Townsend. I spent a few with my dad, from time to time, but without siblings around, and lights downtown, and being able to sit on a street-corner and watch random people walking by in holiday bliss, it was never quite the same.

I went to Port Townsend this year for Christmas, to spend time with my mom, my step-dad, and my sister. Coyote had been living in New Hampshire, and just moved back, so this was the first time in awhile we’ve been able to share a Christmas. Holidays in PT are always relaxing, and I get a lot of reading done, sans distractions, which is very nice. I was up there for about five days, blissed out on good food and pleasant company, lots of walks, and red cheeks from the brisk wind blowing off the Sound.

After Christmas, I recuperated a few days in Olympia, then drove down with Theo and Rachel on the last day of the year to celebrate with Jason and Amy in Portland. I have mixed feelings about New Year celebrations. It seems to me like nothing aside from a blatant excuse for EVERYONE to get drunk. I understand the idea of making new beginnings, though I try to be aware, and make beginnings, whenever they need to be made, rather than waiting for a number on the calendar to change. Which isn’t to say that the holiday itself wasn’t charged with revolution.

The first day of the year, I broke a sweet girl’s heart. On the one hand, it’s a horrible way to start a year. On the other, I did it because I felt it was the right decision, and the resolve and courage it took to follow through are not a bad way to make a new beginning. The idea, now, is to maintain this “single” existence, partially because I really do want to work devotedly on making a better me, and also to avoid hurting any more wonderful people. Eight months. It seems so short and so long, and it’s all still a mystery and a dream, an idea that may or may not come to pass, though I declare that something will happen in that time, even if it be not what is planned.

Anyway, I toast you readers, in this New Year.

May it, indeed, rock your faces off.

CLANG!